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☃ Merry Christmas Eve!

 

 

 

Merry Christmas Eve!

 

 

I hope you all have a wonderful and safe holiday! 

I'm hoping to pop open this Cupcake wine later tonight!

 

Oh holidays....

Usually, I love the holidays. I love the holiday spirit. I love seeing all the decorations in stores, malls and places in general like San Fran or Crescent Street in Concord. I love the Christmasy music, the Christmas movies, gift wrapping, the lights of the Christmas tree downstairs and the cold weather.

But this year, I haven't had much time to actually enjoy it. And that annoys me. The holiday season breezed past me last year because of all the hectic-ness of the wedding and I don't really remember anything about Christmas last year. And this year? The hectic-ness of moving is really stressful. Not only did I realize that Christmas is literally around the corner but I also realized that I have two weeks to clean and pack everything up. Two weeks. Two flippin weeks. How the FUCK did that happen? I had three months at one point, where did that go?

I'm going to spend the rest of tonight posting up blogs in my book and beauty blog, finishing Fall For Anything by Courtney Summers (since it releases tomorrow), wrapping dad's gift, cleaning the room a bit and putting away books.

I hate how the days escape me so quickly.

I got my Sephora package just now (Tokidoki stuff!) and my HarperCollins books for review (The Book of Tomorrow & Between a Rock and a Hot Place). So that's exciting. Tomorrow it's bank (hopefully, if mom remembers my check) and post office to mail Martin's cables back to Amazon. Hoping to sell off more of my makeup before I leave too.

Ugh, never enough time!

Old schools and holidays!

Monday was our last day of class. I didn't really think much of it except that I was annoyed about our presentation. I was on a search for fuzzy socks for guys before class, while husband was at the gym. Apparently fuzzy socks for guys aren't the hottest trend this season. I got CJ some gloves instead. The kind with the caps. I'm jealous, his are cool. They're magnetic.Mine has a button. I also got some earrings from The Icing and two of their new chrome nail polishes. I'm obsessed with chrome nail polish!

Class went by pretty fast, we had a few exercises and then we went on to our presentation in which, I blanked completely on my slide. How embarrassing. But the teacher did like what Victor and Martin did with the intro slide. It was so stupid haha but funny! We got full points just because of that slide alone. Whoooo!

Tuesday I woke up to husband trying to wake me up saying I got my book in that he got me for Christmas. I was half asleep though, so I didn't care lol. He also brought home a big box of Fruit Roll Ups. His reason? "I know you've been looking for themfor a while". Awww, what a sweetie :)! I spent the day doing nothing. Which is bad when you have less than 30 days to move. But man, I just really didn't feel like doing anything!

Wednesday (yesterday) we went to stop by Peoples to catch up and stuff with some of our favorite teachers (mostly Ms. G and Ms. Feeley, I think everyone else left already). Ms. Feeley is so cheerful! She's seriously the coolest teacher in the history of the world. And Ms. G is just plain mean lol. She's always so sarcastic and ready to attack, but in a friendly way :). It was nice being there again, I miss it so much. So much has changed there! And Leadership is falling off, which makes me sad, hopefully it'll pick up again... our Vice Principal, Mr. Mims retired last year and so they made this mural for him...

I thought it was pretty funny. They got him looking all ghetto with a peace sign and stuff. And the pyramids next to him lol. Whoever did this is awesome. With Mims you were either a citizen, a friend or a criminal. He also had a friend named "door" who had another friend named "Tuolumne" and another friend named "Broadway" (which are the streets thatsurround Peoples High School lol). Lucky me, I was always the first two :).

Procrastination.

Husband is so big on watching movies.

In the last 48 hours I've watched Message in a Bottle, Vampires Suck and Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring. I survived LOTR 1! I totally enjoyed it too. Disappointed that Orlando Bloom didn't fuck shit up like he does in every other movie (POTC, Elizabethtown, Troy...).

I'm hungry. My stomach has felt like a never ending pit of.... never ending lately. Ugh, it's so annoying! Maybe I'm eating too many empty calories. I need to stock up on healthy food again. I don't know why I slacked off! 

I've been in a reading rut lately. I know I'm suppose to be reading books like crazy. Enough for December and January but I just... don't feel like reading right now. But I got a ton of stuff to review. I was gonna say something else and I don't remember what it was. Ahh! It's getting late, my brain is getting fuzzy. 

Husband is going to go Christmas shopping on Monday, hopefully. I don't want him to do put it off too late. We don't have a ton of time.

Time.

I'm always talking about time...

Oh! I remember! I'm obsessed with Bath and Body Works Twisted Peppermint body lotion. It smells so good! And it makes my legs tingly :)

Okay, off to read more Anna and the French Kiss!

Holidays!

I've been trying to decide on a blog to blog at and I think I'll settle in here. I love this name and I need somewhere new to blog. Even if there isn't much of an audience to speak to. Just somewhere I can write shit down. Cause honestly, I miss just writing shit down. Somewhere where I don't feel like I have to impress a company.

I can't believe it's already December. Just a few more weeks and I'll be on a plane to my new place. It's crazy to think about... how fast time is going. But I guess it's because Winter days are much shorter and being cold makes you procrastinate. For example, I have a few weeks left and I haven't packed not one thing and I have a lot of crap in my room. Not just my room but all over the house. I don't know what I'm going to do with half of it! I'm thinking of selling some books/DVD's at Half Priced Books and selling some makeup on my makeup blog (though I'm not getting many sales) or eBay. Just to get it out of my sight. Most of it isn't even used either. I need to stop by my county of birth too, to get an official stamped birth certificate that my new job is requesting since I have *no* idea where the hell my social security card went. I had it when I was filling out our marriage license stuff last year and now I don't know where it is! Ughhh. If there's one thing I'm bound to lose over and over it's my damn social security card. I don't think I'd be able to use it anyway, my mom laminated it. For what reason is beyond me. Thanks mom!

Just like last year, I won't have much time to enjoy the holidays this year since I'll be busy with moving and packing and trying to keep my book blog updated as much as I can. Especially in January since I won't know how busy I am. Now reading enough books to post reviews for both January and December? Hope for me, k? 

I'm going to miss my baby Boqers. I'm watching him gather stinky bedding right now. I guess he's cold. I was suppose to clean his cage today, but both my parents are home and even though they don't admit it, every time I'm busy doing something they get in my way. You see I'm busy, why are you asking me random questions!? I don't get parents sometimes.

I'm going to stop now lol. I'm going to keep babbling if I don't. I hope to keep this updated. That would be nice!

My parents make no sense...

First they're all for Martin to stay here and now they're not. Because I'm occupying two rooms.

It's just easier when he's here because I don't have to be 100% OCD all the time. I can go a night without washing my hair if I want to. I don't have to vacuum every night. I don't have to worry so much about my laundry touching things. I don't have to listen to my dad running the damn kitchen faucet every fuckin three seconds. I don't hear my mom stepping on the same fuckin creek on the same fuckin stair every time she goes downstairs. It's quiet in this room. I can actually sleep. I can nap if I want to without being woken up 5 minutes into falling asleep and I don't have to hear my dad snoring.

Plus I've already moved the majority of my books in this room. And now I can't put them back in my room cause they're "dirty" now.

As much as I love my book collection, I know I need to let some of these books go. I need to read them and let them go. I simply don't have room here for them. I don't have room for much in this house, even though I do take up a lot of room. I tried throwing out a bunch of clothes I didn't wear anymore while my parents were at Vegas, but I didn't get around to cleaning out my room. I probably should soon though.

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I applied for the Walt Disney World College Program. I had my phone interview on Wednesday the 15th, I turned in my application I think 1AM-ish on Saturday morning? I didn't tell my parents, I just said I had a phone interview that was extremely important. I won't hear for the next 2-6 weeks if I'm accepted or not. Martin applied too, I'm hoping we both get in, even though it's across the country in Florida... I figure if I don't get accepted, I'll apply to the one at Disneyland.

I'm sad at the thought of leaving the only house I've ever lived in, but at the same time, I'm 25. I'm 5 years away from being 30 and I've never lived anywhere else. And working for Disney is my dream. I don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering, this could be my big break! I don't wanna leave Meez or Jay or Boq, but I have to. Other than my furbabies and my abers, I don't have much else of a reason to stay here.

I just know if I tell my parents if I get accepted they won't be happy for me. They won't be excited for me. They don't know how much this means to me. They don't know how big of a Disney fan I am. And the last time I brought this up with my mom, she said it was just a childish dream. Just like with every other dream I've ever had. And I can only imagine what my dad will say, which I'm sure will consist of "that's too far". And it makes me sad, but I think I've pretty much accepted that nothing I do will make them proud. And I'm doing everything for me. To take care of myself. To make sure I get to where I need to go.

At least I know my abers will be happy and proud of me. And I know I'll be proud of me. And that's all that should really matter anyway.

Goodbye Vox...

It's so sad to see Vox closing down, I had a wonderful time there and I've currently exported my blog here, to TypePad. I'm still trying to get the hang of this site, but so far, I'm enjoying the change.

I know it's been a very long while since I've blogged here... but I decided to bring this back because I need somewhere I can vent. I know, I know, I have a million blogs floating around. I need to fix that, and besides, I've missed this username!

A lot has happened in the last year or so, too much to really catch up on, so I'll just jump right into now and maybe give up glimpses of the last year or so.

So yesterday mom came into my room saying to ask dad for money to help me pay my bill. Saying she doesn't have over time this month. I told her my dad doesn't have any money to spare (he just spent about $1000 to fix the fence) and she snapped at me, "yes he does, someone's giving him money, I know he has money. Ask him!" so I just nodded to get her to leave me along already. I know my dad doesn't have money, I don't know where she's getting this crap from or what's going on in her little head.

She's been saying all sorts of REDOKULOUS things about my dad the last few weeks and she's been spending the last week on her laptop, which makes me wonder... considering the only sites she knows how to use is gmail and Facebook. Who could she be contacting? And why is she saying all these things about my dad that aren't true? I don't know what's going on... but I hate being pulled into it.

I'm thinking of applying for an internship across the country next year, I need to get out of all this crazy stuff.

I really hate work.

I had a 4AM shift today. Getting to work that early should be all kinds of illegal. The morning went pretty smooth, went by kinda slow, it felt like I was there forever and I checked the time, it was 6AM. There was no point in taking a break cause there'd be no one to call. Lame! So my manager spent a good amount of time yelling at me, over something really dumb. I was really just NOT in the mood to hear her yell at me. Ugh it was so irritating. Its like basically you're saying you think I'm stupid just fuckin say it. Shit. I came in with the intention of putting in my two weeks and left with the intention of just never fuckin comin back. Fuck them. You dont fuckin pay me enough to have me get up THAT fuckin early every weekend and yell at me. I totally thought that jobs were there to help you pay for your bills. What the fuck is $80 a week gonna do for me? That aint payin shit! So its basically pointless that I work there if I'm not even getting paid enough to pay my fuckin bills, right? Ugh. Hella retarded.

I just want to fuckin focus everything on school and get the fuck out of here already. I'm so damn sick of the bay area.

And damn, a WHOLE YEAR just passed? Wtf? What happened to March? Seriously. Did I miss something? Good gosh.

ONE MORE DAY TIL TWILIGHT!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
                              

I dont think that did it justice....

Okay whatever, I'm not gonna ruin my layout for it haha. Sorry Twilight <33.

But ZOMG! One more effen day!!! I'm SUPER SAD I'm not gonna get to go to the midnight showing because of weak ass work! Though it would SO be worth pulling the all-nighter for! Not going online til I see the movie though cause you know, at around 3AM there's gonna be shit about it ALL OVER the internet and all! AHHHH! Hella fuckin excited!!!

And if you didnt know by now, I'm hella TEAM JAMES!!! Haha, I know, I know shut up. But Cam is freakin hott!!

Me: I'm hella team JAMES!
Martin: you mean you're team dead? Team goner? Team slaugherhouse? D E A D.

LMFAO. Bitch. James will always be better than Edward! Haha.

Sick!

I skipped work yesterday & today cause I've been sick. I called Kaiser and they forwarded me to a nurse who told me... over the phone that I'm coming down with a cold. Well gee, thanks for answering allllll my questions. And still, no excused note. Yeah, totally, thanks. Pffttt. I am being seen today for my hand though. I have had these really weird itches on my hands that started out on my index finger and when they itch they kinda burn and turn into these really huge ugly bumps and then they go back down and scab up. At first it was just on my right index finger but then it started to spread to my left index finger, the webbing between my right index & my middle finger and to both of my pinkies. So now I have this weird itchy scab crap on my hands. Like, it never goes away. It doesnt itch all the time but the bumps dont go away anymore. I tried having it looked at by my doctor for the passed four years and she just excused as "oh there's nothing wrong with your hands". Yeah, exactly why I hate going to to hospital.

So as much as I dont want to, I have to force myself to go to work at least tomorrow. Cause I do need the money. But dammit, I feel like utter shit right now.

Martin offered to drive me to work (keep in mind I had work at 5AM this morning) and when I confirmed and ask if he was sure, he replied with "well, I dont know how about I just pull an all nighter and make sure you wake up?" his reason? He offered when I was working at Six Flags and ended up having to do it everyday. Even though everyday he offered and he wasnt doin shit anyway. He wasnt working he was just sitting on his ass playing video games, so... wtf? Whatever though, I already knew that was gonna happen so I cant say I was too sad about it.

Every Christmas season, I'm broke! I'm a bit selfish when it comes to gifts. Then again, I dont have many friends to give gifts to and I'm horrible at giving gifts! I never know what to get someone else. I never know what to get my parents. I wanna put a lot of thought into what I'm gonna get my dad. I'm the only one in the house who gives him a gift. Not my mom, not my brother, just me. And it makes me really sad. Whatever I get my mom, she'll just return and for some odd reason the passed few years my brother has got her the exact same thing I get her and she never uses what I got her. So, yeah. I had what I was gonna get Martin in mind, but I'm really tired of buying him expensive things because 1) someone in his family always ends up using it which pisses me the fuck off 2) he never really seems like he cares about it after awhile. Like I bought him the Red God of War PSP and its been sitting in front of my room for like, six months now. That's freakin $200!! UGH.

Besides that, I have a good idea of what I'm getting myself for Christmas...

• 8" pink Acer laptop
• Sinful pink hoodie
• Tokidoki figurine
• $50 Sephora gift card

I dont know why, but I love buying myself gift cards. I'm hoping I get to go to Disneyland too. I really really really really want to go to Disneyland this Christmas season. I love it there during the Christmas. AND I go every two years. I'm in super debt but I hella wanna go! I mean, I could easily come up with the money, its just... Martin's half that I'm more worried about... you know? And this always happens. We go on vacation and I pay for everything. Literally, everything. I try not to think about it because it really makes me sad. I might just skip Disneyland this year and go during my birthday. Even though there's nothing special about it during the Spring. I'm planning on going to New York next winter though. Or Washington. Or DisneyWorld. I dont know how much DisneyWorld would cost and I'm really scared of long plane rides. My ears do this funky painful thing. Yeah not fun. Oh well, who knows... I havent decided yet...

Sucks that I dont make enough money to pay my bills && do everything I wanna do... I need my job at Six Flags back. Right now I get paid $80-$91 a week. At Six Flags I got paid $300-$400 a week. A WEEK. I just had to give up my life, that's all. But its so worth it to get paid that much money! At least my bills were SO paid LOL.